february eh? how time flies. this coming 21st going to be a year since bapak left us, me especially. i missed him, seriously i missed him. that is why i kept on teaching sofiyya to learned the word "atuk'. i'll asked her 'atuk mana atuk?' and she replied 'atukkk'. sad thing though. al-fatihah to bapak. anyway, starting february im officially a full timer. higher salary and more worth it. i've stop job hunting actually cause i'm busy working at starbucks, but mak harimau kept on putting the pressure. 'awak cuba lah syarikat ini itu ini itu'. fed up actually but me myself haven't stop trying and praying actually. menyesal tak tolak semua tawaran dulu? i don't have the exact answer, it's a no i guess.
the other day i told my bro in law that i've changed to full timer and i was like 'ni rasa useless kerja starbucks even though full timer skrg'. if u all know what i meant from that, i just need a permanent job. a proper one, a stable salary. and he replied 'ni jgn berfikiran mcm makcik-makcik boleh tak?ni kerja, bukannya menganggur, and apa salahnya starbucks?'. and i was like hmm. i've been thinking this actually, if i dont get a proper job anytime soon, i'll make starbucks as my career but not forever obviously. the differences only from the attire and timing. salary? its just the same. example, my friend working as a pr executive and his salary? 1.8 k a month. when u work at here, your meal and drinks? foc. eheh. so there's pros and cons. the cons? ahhh people perceptions. 'kau belajar tinggi-tinggi, end up dekat starbucks? layan orang? buat air? heh.
apart from it, life treated me okay so far. i came with a routine nowadays which is a coffee session with my friends whenever im off. i'll hang out with the same person every single day. i don't have so many friends actually, social networking friends are just social networking friends. not more than that. actually i get offended with some of my friends behavior when they already have someone in their life. being ignored is the correct word maybe? rarely contact and etc. am i like that before this? i guess so. but brahh its okay, its their life. not mine. ahah. i'll just live my life without them. i'm totally cool with it. oh yeah, i'm supposedly going to sg this month but ahah things happened. a friend of mine confessed his feeling towards me, which makes me errrr eyeww errrr. fucking awkward with it. you're only my course mate, not more than that. sorry friend.
ahhhhhhh okay i should get a sleep by now, back to back working hour. nice eyy? good day!
